and i shall not post my new link here.

you've caused trouble to my friends, and thats enough.

so please ask me for my new link on msn yeahs,

i'd be glad to give it to you provided you don't go around

disturbing my friends causing them to change their links.

don't be such a ass. my msn @

untrusted-loyalty@hotmail.com

my friends know about it .

'cause whenever i don't feel pleased with that particular person,

i can't type it out here, people will start asking craps -.-

and nowadays, i hate people probing into my life for some reason.

psychological problems bah, no one knows.

haaaaaahs, shall tell later on if i am changing link or creating a new blog.

/♥ editted!

what if.
you were to ask for smth and you get a scolding in return?
what if.
you searchED for a job, and you called ur workplace but they didn't answer and your mom goes.
faster go search for a job la, no money still go out go out.
what if.
you had thoughts before, to hurt yourself/someone else. and you're thinking about it again.
what if.
you felt hopeless and theres no one there for you.
what if.
you had to go out, and your mom says, go go luh, i'll make sure you don't return to this home.
and you just merely went out to a class event. and you have t part w this class after a month.
answer me, how would you feel.
it's like you just ask for smth,
and all you asked was "can i go?"
and all of a sudden, words, hurting words came flying to you.
physical abuses, verbal abuses.
everything, yes, everything.
while a moment ago,
you were playing and jumping and dancing happily.
w your classmates, regardless of male or female.
you were there w them, playing, enjoying every single moment of it.
bbqs, crappy talks, laughters and everything nice was w you.
and that was just a mere moment ago.
and now you just feel like torturing yourself.
make everything hurt so badly that you wont ever get hurt again.
no matter how harsh you are to your own.
you just feel numb.
you don't feel pain, nor happiness, nor how cold/ how hot you are.
you just don't care about anything now,
you just wished you could just die,
just stay away from every human race,
every living things, every piece of thing in the world.
but there's something thats stopping you from these,
the ones YOU love, not those who loves you.
being in a situation like this, how / what will you do.
and these things just finished like merely a minute ago.

now i don't feel anything anymore,
i just thought of shutting out my life, lay in eternal light.
feeling peace, w your loved ones. w out restrictions from fxcked up parents.
just peacefulness, surrounding you, and you have everything you need.
and everything you want, how blissful is that place.. how beautiful .
nvm, nobody will understand me, nor try to understand me..
i'm just a nobody, a loner.
forget it. the more i talk about it,
the more i feel, and the more i feel, the more i want to die.
bahs, just forget it . let me rot away, alone, in the darkness, maybe one will find me.
maybe, just maybe ..

heeehs, today whole day eat one meal only luh,

sian. first time siaa, broken the record of 5meals /day (:
lalala, today idk why so down,

hais, imh ):
shall stop here,

tmr i have extra maths class,

bored , wna skip class man -.-

nvm shall make the run when teachers not looking :D

yo! back to post after a long time, i guess :x

it's been 10days since i posted :)

These few days went out, w CG.

was quite fun and enjoyable,

SS501's New song got me addicted :X
Love Like This (:

Niceee! hoho, yesterday hor,

joey went crazy about SS501's intro line.

Lols, crapped loads yesterday night (:
ahhhhhs, sian + shag ahhhh!

really bored!

don't even know my schedule yet .___.

stupid macs ah, so slow! One week liao hor!

hais, I WANT JOIN DANCEEEEEEE ! ):
*Dissapointed DD:
faster give me my schedule!
i want to faster work!
then can faster get pay!
then can go apply for dance!
hais, what a failure .__.

but nevermind bah, don't think i can get into dance class so easily anyways.

haissssssss! cry ah cry.

i think dance will have to wait , quite long infact. ):

learning korean now, through internettt! :D
heeehs, [: